Well, the time has come. This is the time I have been dreading for the last 6 years of my life. All I have ever known is school, and heck I was really good at it. Now, I am not in school. I am almost 24 years old and 19 of those years were spent in school. How can I even think that I know the world?
I am about to enter this next phase of my life. For a while, I avoided the thought of having to figure out what I was going to do. Now that this is here, I am getting excited! Don’t get me wrong, I am still terrified. There are many “adult” responsibilities that have been put on my plate. But, I think I can handle it? What excites me the most, is my career for the next year. I will be teaching drama to some cute little babies in Brooklyn, New York. I can honestly say that I don’t know what that means. I don’t know what I am getting myself into. What I do know is that Lovewell and NYU have prepared me for this.
This summer has reaffirmed for me that I can do this. Not to toot my own horn, but I think I may be really good at this teacher thing. I believed I have learned more about myself this summer, both personally and as an artist/educator. Things started off rough in the beginning of the summer. I can honestly say that I was in a horrible place. I was emotionally hurting myself, but even worse I was emotionally hurting my friends. I don’t know what changed. I don’t know how things changed. But, things changed and I am happy for that. I am a happier person today and I am thankful for the people that made that possible. Cooperation and Joy. That is how I will be living my life for the rest of the year. In addition, I am trying to stop thinking about what is next, and start living the now. I have never been good at that. I am the person that wants to know what is next. It is time to take a step back and appreciate who/what I have in my life. I am one lucky little lady.
As I am writing this, I have nowhere to live for the next year. I have tons of loans to pay back. I have close to no money in my bank account. For the first time in my life, I am okay with the unknown. I trust that things will work out. They always do.
Stay tuned for updates on my future adventures.
For now, I am going on vacation for a week. On this vacation, I refuse to think about the later and what I will need to do in the next month.
I love everyone from the summer of the century. Y’all are the greatest people I know, and I hold you so close to my heart. The thought of not seeing you everyday breaks my heart. As Carrie says, this makes our reunions even more exciting.
“I am now at this moment all that I need to be.”