Here we go

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As I watched Cassie and Gabby walk to their cars tonight, it set in that summer is now over. The end of this summer is bigger than its ever been. I don’t think I am ready for this change, but who is ever ready for change. I am scared. My instinct is to run away and not do this. Yes, that doesn’t solve anything. I know that. I just don’t want to do this. Wait. I do want to do this, and I know I will love it. I am just scared for this beginning. Once I am settled into an apartment and in a regular routine all will be well. I can’t wait for that day.

This summer has been out of control, both good and bad. I made a lot of mistake. I learned a lot. I lived a lot. Thank you to all of my friends (more like family) for everything. I love you all so much, more than I can say. You are the best people I have ever known. Lets do this forever? Be a family.

 

P.S. Gabby’s 21st birthday was a scene from a movie. We couldn’t have scripted that night any better! So. Awesome!

Once Upon a Time

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Well, the time has come. This is the time I have been dreading for the last 6 years of my life. All I have ever known is school, and heck I was really good at it. Now, I am not in school. I am almost 24 years old and 19 of those years were spent in school. How can I even think that I know the world?

I am about to enter this next phase of my life. For a while, I avoided the thought of having to figure out what I was going to do. Now that this is here, I am getting excited! Don’t get me wrong, I am still terrified. There are many “adult” responsibilities that have been put on my plate. But, I think I can handle it? What excites me the most, is my career for the next year. I will be teaching drama to some cute little babies in Brooklyn, New York. I can honestly say that I don’t know what that means. I don’t know what I am getting myself into. What I do know is that Lovewell and NYU have prepared me for this.

This summer has reaffirmed for me that I can do this. Not to toot my own horn, but I think I may be really good at this teacher thing. I believed I have learned more about myself this summer, both personally and as an artist/educator. Things started off rough in the beginning of the summer. I can honestly say that I was in a horrible place. I was emotionally hurting myself, but even worse I was emotionally hurting my friends. I don’t know what changed. I don’t know how things changed. But, things changed and I am happy for that. I am a happier person today and I am thankful for the people that made that possible. Cooperation and Joy. That is how I will be living my life for the rest of the year. In addition, I am trying to stop thinking about what is next, and start living the now. I have never been good at that. I am the person that wants to know what is next. It is time to take a step back and appreciate who/what I have in my life. I am one lucky little lady.

As I am writing this, I have nowhere to live for the next year. I have tons of loans to pay back. I have close to no money in my bank account. For the first time in my life, I am okay with the unknown. I trust that things will work out. They always do.

Stay tuned for updates on my future adventures.

For now, I am going on vacation for a week. On this vacation, I refuse to think about the later and what I will need to do in the next month.

I love everyone from the summer of the century. Y’all are the greatest people I know, and I hold you so close to my heart. The thought of not seeing you everyday breaks my heart. As Carrie says, this makes our reunions even more exciting.

“I am now at this moment all that I need to be.”

 

Affros

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Words I am living and breathing at this moment. (Or at least trying to…)

1.Within me there is boundless creative power.

2. I am now at this moment all that I need to be.

3. I visualize perfection daily until I breathe it into expression.

4. I am pure energy and awareness.

5. All my needs will always be supplied by my understanding of creativity.

6. I have a kind thought for everyone may we create today in the spirit of cooperation and joy.

7. Now let me in silence reaffirm why I am here.

 

LISTENWELL

CREATEWELL

LOVEWELL

 

 

I love everyone in my life right now. I plan to be happy for the next 6 weeks!! What do you think?

Brand new

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I just deleted 70 posts dating back 2ish years. After I hit the delete button I got that regret feeling. Then I realized that it needed to be done. I am starting over. This is going to be a happy/exciting blog. I am making it a goal to write some more, and this is where I am going to start.

To my old entries (both happy and sad), I thank you but it was time for you to go.

That is all I have for now. Stay tuned for more

 

Also, I love my friends. They are seriously the best. Summer is here and I couldn’t be more excited.